Monday, June 27, 2005

i'm just a depressed lil soul now.

gonna get a big chunky F for biology and chinese.
yea. then the whole world can laugh at me for being so dumb. ):
imagine an essay question 20 marks! blank.
ha. die la.

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 4:06 PM

4:06 PM

Sunday, June 26, 2005

as the day closes in on me, i start to worry.

biology. dieeeeeeeeeeeeee!

see i left my cell membranes notes at my aunt's place. besides that, i haven't covered cell cyto-somethin, proteins, carbo, respiration, photosynthesis and many more. ):

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 8:27 PM

8:27 PM

Saturday, June 25, 2005

yes i should be studying as usual. ):

*goes on ranting about how the mid years is gonna kill me. (cos i apparently made a bet with my mummy putting my mid year results on the line.) i don't think i was very smart to have done that. but that was all i could offer. hahaha.

daniel! if u're readin this, u've gotta update me on alot of stuff. alot. what if ppl think that i'm some kinda b*tch or s*ut. haha. this is horrible. what fun!? u call this fun? let me show u what's called fun. (takes out a squash racket and starts hitting straight drives with powerful swings.) yea!!! now we're talking my language. (: anyways, do update me.

well, i'm missing squash like crazie. i even dream of it. speakin of dreams, i made one about pweetiee boy last night. haha. it was somethin like a friendly chat. quite nice. =D though it's has been completely wiped out from my brain already, i can remember bits and pieces i guess. heh.
to yee teng and fir! (and possibly myself) i know we all wanna squash it out. vent our frustrations on the court but for now, let's just hit the books alright. yup. i'm close to tearin them up already. ha. kiddin la! after the mids, we'll have match ups! (:

i pray for results like A B B A. haha. nice rite. mama mia~
but how can these results become reality without sheer hard work. that's where I come into play. it's my duty to accomplish my task. however, browsing through all the notes won't help. nothing registers. help.

God bless! (:

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 4:13 PM

4:13 PM

Thursday, June 23, 2005

first mid years in meridian.

shit! dunno where to start and how to start revision. lost my exam schedule.
not to mention i have abt 4 days left. die!

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 1:19 PM

1:19 PM

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

my mum just got me a pink and grey converse drum bag! ha. i like it loads. (:

who's the passerby, i wonder.

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 5:09 PM

5:09 PM

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

today i went to school slightly later than normal. haha. wanted to go for econs but then i decided not to cos i havent revised anythin yet! ):

anyways, met up with mus to study (econs) for the mid years. i think i did most of the talkin. man was so distracted today. and my hair! ahhh! think i shocked many today. =x
then i went out with cher! haha. long time nv talk to that girl already. she reads my blog! yay. perhaps the only few who reads. (: love ya! haha. we went to the library at marine parade but it was too crowded so we went to eat pasta mania! oh. dun remind me. the creammmyyyness of the pasta is just *bleagh.* pukes.
i wanted ice cream but it was too fattenin. and i was on a budget! so we had bbt instead. a cheaper alternative. *econs. =x* after that i took a bus back to pasir ris and came back home. maple with my aunt. haha. quite sians la. z. my hair is too flat. boo.

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 9:14 PM

9:14 PM

Friday, June 17, 2005

squash on peeps.

this is FUN! (:
might be goin to watch a movie with the tpjc squashers tmr. =x ha.
no worries cos i'm still loyal to mjc squash. may we train hard and achieve our targets for next year. =D

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 10:57 PM

10:57 PM

Thursday, June 16, 2005

i had great bondin with the tpjc squashers!

haha. damn fun. (:

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 11:33 PM

11:33 PM

the opponent i fought yesterday lost to a 9 year old kid. she was so upset she cried for a while.. hais. so poor thing.

anyways i played in the women's plate tournament and won all 3 matches. (actually one was a walkover since my opponent was sick and thus couldn't make it.) so today i'm gonna play in the quarter finals. eh. this is so stressful. =x

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 8:23 AM

8:23 AM

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

i lost.

yup. i feel quite upset and disappointed in myself at first la. cos afterall i believe that i have to keep up with my image as a v cap. cried like mad. i admit i seemed like a bit of a spoilsport. but seriously. i'm still human. of cos i would feel sad la. i mean who wouldn't rite. to meet this kinda opponent in a tournament when i was expectin it to be less demandin. i was hopin that my opponent wouldn't be her. but then, it had to.

but after much reflection as learnt from the LTC, there's much more to learn from this experience with her. her service was astoundin. couldn't hit back properly. and every front ball she gets she whams it backwards to the glass wall. yes. a worthy opponent she is. glad to have met her there. and hope that she advances to the finals.

i'm drained.

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 11:08 PM

11:08 PM

Monday, June 13, 2005

this is seriously goin to be one hell of a long entry.

i just came back from LTC! WOOO.!! what can i say.. it rawked. actually we're supposed to be released at 12 but due to the upcomin tournament we left earlier to train for tmr's matches. but i'm missing my Archangels already!!! ): i know at camp break everyones gonna get a lil emotional den we can do the camp songs (Dum Dum Dee Dee!) and our famous PARA PARA. =D

throughout this camp, i felt really bonded and close to my group members. i got to know them a step better and i'm so glad to be posted to Archangels. (Even though err. pweetiee boy was in group G-String. =x) the spirit and the enthusiasm just flowed out of everyone naturally. we felt for each other, understood each other and patiently waited for each other. we tried to not leave anyone out of our conversations and cheers. bondings in a group is easy but bonding as a whole group is actually not. we managed to do what others might have failed to. (:

Archangel's CHEER!
good mornin angels. good mornin (whoever's name).
a one a two a one two three four
A *clap clap clap clap*
R *clap clap clap clap*
C *clap*
H *clap*
A *clap clap clap clap*
N
G + *clap*
E
L + *clap*
S *clap clap clap clap*
Archangels! POWER!

it had been 4 whole days since i last updated and i just feel like recapping and reflecting on the LTC (Leadership Training Camp) held at bukit timah dairy farm. and no, it's NOT a place where we spent our days milking cows. heh.. -.-

Day One
okay. the day before this, van and me had squash trainin at tampines safra at 11. after that we rushed down to meet our fellow group members to further discuss the ice breakers which happened to be our first event. we freaked out at late afternoon cos we realised that we wasted the day away when we were supposed to come up with our skit and dance. luckily later at night tian wei could come up with various dance steps to fit into our para para song. the next mornin, we specially came to school earlier to pract our dance moves with the lil time we had. hey, i was surprised cos we caught on really fast! =D then we had our briefing for ice breakers.

we departed for the camp site early with Hicredibles cos we were the first event. (thinking about it, van and me missed goin and comin back with the whole group of campers.) anyways we helped with the logistics. it was darn heavy la. then we had our first item of the day, ice breakers. there was some preperation that was needed to be done for our stations. we had to also choose suitable locations for the events to take place. overall it went on quite smoothly. the weather was fine. it was fun gettin to be the one blowin the whistle signifyin the end of one station. =p~
then came our leadership talk. at night we had our solo night walk! ha. Archangels went for the jungle trail at around close to midnight. it was pitch dark! i was the 2nd girl to enter, also the 3rd person to go on the solo walk through the path. it was very memorable cos we had to walk through this big open field with a starry sky hung above us, when u face ur right u see mountains and trees. which was damn nice! it reminded me of the scenes in final fantasy. (:

Day Two
mornin PT was cancelled cos we were tired out by the night walk. we had our high elements on that day. (The flying fox, pole jump etc..) yup. temasek poly has similar stuff. except that the flying fox at the camp site was 4 storeys high!!! man. i was quite lookin forward to that. however, due to bad weather, we had to skip a station. and that was what we had to forgo. anyways, we proceeded on with positive attitudes. we went on every stunt. even those with fear of heights overcame them. at the same time we started to become more open with our comments and our cheers just got louder and louder. (:

at night we had a leadership talk again.

Day Three
the most happenin day - when we really revealed Archangel's spirit.
started the day with bad weather hence the amazing race had to be cancelled. i was quite interested in that event though. ahah. cos we get to walk to jungle route once again. through the open field in the day! how cool is that. durin our free time we started to play games like chop chilli chop and Hello harry. ahahs. i dunno how we ended up combinin with group Brudders to do the friendship dance. then from 2 groups we expanded to having all the groups (except Elements) joinin us in it. haha. yup. at least i got to dance with pweetiee boy! (:
anyways, we had to do dragon boating in the afternoon! (that explains the redness of my face. got slightly burnt.) we shared a bus with group G-String. (and i was damn happy abt it cos pweetiee boy was 2 seats in front of me. =x) and then Archangels started goin high again. singin songs, oldies like songs from ackstreet boys and micheal learns to rock, with mus pollutin my ear with his voice. lol!! nah i'm kiddin it wasn't that bad. =x

dragon boating was no doubt v tiring but it was truly an experience i'd never forget. the one two push motions were damn difficult to catch up with! it was then that the group Crappyangels (a mix of grp A and C) were formed. we were brought to the middle of the sea where we were told to rock the boat left and right, up and down. haha. it was fun! somethin like pirates ship. =x after that me and val cheah jumped off the boat into the water to swim. slowly we managed to convince everyone to get into the water and we did the friendship dance in the sea! haha.. we even raced with the other groups back to the startin point! and we came in 3rd! so fun.. when we got back to shore, took a group pic and we were told that we were gonna get even dirtier! (erm. if u were wonderin why i said "even dirtier", the sea water wasn't exactly very clean la. there were already marks on my completely white shirt.) hahaha. *stunned.

group G-String led us to the other side of the beach where we had to fill a 1.5 litre bottle and a cardboard box fully with water and sand respectively. hahas. Archangels rawks la. we practially stripped our shirt to aid those collecting water. =p~
in the end, we won! of cos rite! Archangels! POWER.
after that we headed back to get ready for campfire! (:
bathed then met up with the others at the entrance where we pract our para para for the last time before goin on stage. we were the first up cos it's arranged accordin to alphabetical order. *it has always been that way. lol.*

I LOVE CAMPFIRE. i enjoyed the performances thoroughly! even ours. it was like no stress man. just follow the beat. follow ur heart. and things fall into place just like that. the guys pageant was funny. ahahas. cos mus got me to be his dance partner and we were damn high. so it was like madness. lol. it was quite interestin though. then we did friendship dance (YES i managed ti dance with him again.) and campfire cheers.
we did the mj school song, mj mass dance, mj cheers. we were at our peak then.

but what struck me was the "Mhm. I want to linger here. Mhm. A lil longer here. Mhm. A lil longer here with youuuuuu. Mhm. It's such a perfect night. Mhm. It doesn't seem quite right. Mhm. It doesn't seem quite right tonight." song. that signified the end of the campfire and our stay at the dairy farm with these bunch of amazing people. it's touchin and i felt it sink into my heart. cos the tune was quite depressing. that song would always remind me of mus and his sick version of it. (:

we had our final debrief of the day. den we played truth or dare. i kena 3 times. 2 truths one dare. haha. the dare was to hold hands with pweetiee boy and walk! oh my. cos of mus la. i saw that comin already. but i was happy (and nervous? =x) la. since he had to quickly get back to his group he raised his hand first den i just took hold of it and walked forward till we reached our group den he hurried back. lols. it's just a game.

this mornin i skipped endurance run. was quite pissed with somethin but i won't say it here. siao ar. haha. anyways, we helped out with the cleanin up of the canteen, mopped the whole chain of army ants out of the canteen. and then packed up (i realised that i forgot to bring back my eatin utensils. =x) and came back home.

there's no place like home sweet home!
time to pract squash with my new grip.
wish me luck for tmr. has. this is damn long. =x cya guys!

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 9:26 AM

9:26 AM

Thursday, June 09, 2005

fucking brothers.

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 10:45 PM

10:45 PM

these few days have my main focus on squash.
wake up in the mornin. squash. afternoon LTC meetings. before sleeping at night squash. my whole mind is filled with squash techniques, court footwork and forehand swing backhand swing and powerful service.

wah seh. i'm totally drained! and i'm still nervous man. it's like 4 days before the competition i have stupid LTC! *leadership trainin camp la. den how to pract rite. i will lose touch with squash one. cos i'm not that pro yet. sometimes i'll reach my peak but sometimes my service is like shit. it's so unpredictable. after LTC i'm gonna get my smash grip from queensway shopping mall cos i NEED it. then it's off for more practice. (:

for my first match i'm up against a girl called gladys from SCGS. she's my opponent for the day at 2.45pm at Singapore Poly. oh my.. CHERLYN! ahahas!! the name! coincedence yes ? =p *ahems.* wonder why queer things like this happen all the time.

lols. time to pack my stuff! tmr i'm off for LTC. miss me all. (:
keep tagging yea. =D

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 8:56 PM

8:56 PM

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

i went to orchard then bugis with amanda!

took neoprints. but i still think that i look bad in photos. might be uploading it unto friendster sometime.

after that came back to do the LTC proposal. fell asleep while doing it cos it was too boring! and that only 4 stations gave me their feedback on the stuff. -.-! =x the remaining ones didn't even hear a word from them la. damn BAD! horrible! zz. so i had to do everythin myself. luckily i had the help of mus. thanks!!! (:

i had to wake myself up cos i had squash training with eugene atiqah and anting. hah. we played until 9+ then went back. hmms. i have lots of footwork and swings to pract la. not enough time to prepare for the tournament!!! ): feel like ponning LTC to play squash. haha. can i at least bring my racquet to pract the forehand and backhand swings. ):

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 11:29 PM

11:29 PM

Monday, June 06, 2005

i didn't go for econs tutorial.
and apparently a teacher called the night before. i wonder who. she asked for me then asked for my dad. luckily the whole family was out. or not i'd be in deep shit. lol.. hope she doesn't call again. =x

right after school at 5, cher and me rushed down to far east to get her nails done. (french manicure.) haha.. it took like half an hour or round about. it's really quite nice. and i think now she must be stickin on her lil pink stars unto her nails. ^^ anyways durin that period of time, amanda was takin her own sweet time, makin her way to far east. lol!

after she came we had our budget dinner. haha. cos we were kinda broke. had to save up for shoppin later. =p~

i'm still thinkin about what to do with my hair. accordin to RiRimon(ster), my bro's friend, he told me that my hair wasn't fit for curls cos the length is too short. should rebond first then wait for my hair to reach waist length then ceramic perm. yeaps.
which means that.. people can start contributin to jan's rebondin hair fund. *stares at RiRimon who kindly gave me useful advice which is takin effect on me even as we speak. yay.

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 11:56 PM

11:56 PM

Sunday, June 05, 2005

hey people.

will be gone for LTC this comin fri to mon. which is 10 - 13 june. (while my aunt laura is at shanghai with her family stayin at a hotel with comfy beds.) then it's my squash tournament thing.

summary of my hols.
week 1 - GP EXAM / LECTURES / TUTORIALS.
week 2 - 1 day of lecture / tutorials / squash training / squash outing / squash tournament /LTC
week 3 - LTC / goin out with tpjc friends / classmates
week 4 - MUG for exams

which means effectively i have only the last week of the holidays to study for my mid years. OMG! i'm dead. God please give me clarity of mind, a strong will to study. grant me a miracle. (:

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 10:59 PM

10:59 PM

Saturday, June 04, 2005

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jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 11:49 PM

11:49 PM

i just came back from a shopping trip.

hahas. feelin satisfied. =D

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 11:21 PM

11:21 PM

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

hey guys!

i had LTC briefin today. got our packin list.
found out that i'm from the awesome A(rchAngel) group. yea! double A somemore. double the power. lols!!! =D

i went for econs lecture but skipped everythin else. *chem, math lecture and math tutorial.
hope the class had fun during the lectures. =D
ahah. met ber today at the airport to study! yay. hopefully we can meet again sometime durin the 3rd week of the hols. zz.. muggin again. =p~

wonder how is wanqi and steph. haven't seen them for some time already.
after that me socks jasmine and james attended the tjc band concert.
just wanna say great job rach and kev! hees. their SYF piece was v nice. i felt so awake the moment i heard it.
and i jus found out *from socks.* that mj band's choice piece was the Invictus! =x
crapped with socks and her classmates all da way back on the mrt about thunder. he's such an interestin guy. hahah. neither can i imagine him with his hair short nor can i imagine him packin ALL his stuff quickly, chionging home after school like a nerd. =x

yup. wanna thank one and all for takin time off to tag on my humble bloggie. appreciate it.. (: ELTON! what shld i do. lols. >.<
please tag more. wahahha. =p~

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 11:37 PM

11:37 PM